Nearly 3-hour LD. Galantamine. Sign = breathing underwater.

Date of dream: Sunday, June 09, 2013

Level of Lucidity:     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
Lucid Intent? Yes     Lucid Technique: RT

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Since I've been taking Xyrem twice a night for narcolepsy, I'm actually getting beyond stage 2 sleep now, but it really interferes w/my ability to remember my dreams, so when I found galantamine (red spider lily extract), I had to try it. The first two times, it just kept me awake. This time, it was amazing! I took it with the second dose.

0530: 3g xyrem + 420 mg phosphatidyl choline + 8 mg galantamine


(The dream was pretty much continuous after the false awakening, but I'm going to break it up by change in scenery to make it easier to read.)


* * *


I was just barely awake (or in stage 1) until close to 7 when I went to look at the time on my phone and it said 10 TR, which didn't make any sense, so I looked again and saw 10 PM, and there was no way I'd slept all day! So I looked again, but there was nothing on the screen at all, and I saw my background had been changed. I tried again several times but still saw no text against a changed background. Finally, I opened my eyes for real and saw it was 6:57.


* * *


I went back to half-sleep. I saw Dean and Sam from the show Supernatural and Dean couldn't get the cap of his pen off. (I have a habit of pushing them on so tight that they're difficult to remove later.) I got my pen out of my pocket and had the same problem. Then he was having the issue with his phone that I was having earlier.


* * *


Next, I was signed up for this wood carving class but a guy next to me started teaching me how to carve things.


* * *


Then I "woke up" to find a cat I didn't recognize at the end of the bed. (I keep the door shut to keep mine out.) He had a collar, so I went to pet him. I saw two others and didn't recognize them either.


* * *


Things got progressively more vivid. I got out of bed, wearing the same thing (T shirt and boxers) and left the house, walked down this stone walkway, past fountains on both sides, and into this gallery of mostly nude photography. I started wondering why no one noticed that I wasn't wearing pants.


Walking back out, I felt the stone floor, ran a few steps and it was hard and cold and solid under my feet, but I still wasn't totally convinced that I was awake. I stepped into one of the fountains and tried to push my finger through my palm. It didn't work. I ducked my head underwater and was able to breathe, which confirmed that I was dreaming! (This became a main theme.)


Because I remembered that spinning can solidify a lucid dream and help maintain lucidity, I tried it but I woke up! It was 7:19. I closed my eyes, visualized the scene, and went right back into it!


* * *


I walked down the walkway again where I met a girl* (my perception at the time) and tried to convince her that she was dreaming, too. It was as if she didn't hear me (or didn't believe me, or didn't care). We walked around for a while. I tried to teleport somewhere else but it didn't work. Then we were in a room alone and she told me she wished she hadn't been born a genetic female and I told them I born the same way, and s/he said she could tell (I have scars on my chest).


There were bunk beds on both sides of the room and we each sat on one of the top ones and s/he got out a bong that looked like it was assembled from random metal parts found at Home Depot. S/he took a hit and passed it to me and I held it for a while before exhaling, at which point things got very fuzzy and everything kind of stopped - strange, because it wasn't "real." At this point, I noticed that the most horrifying porn was playing on a TV in the room - two people in these hideous rubber sex doll suits - and I left to go back to the fountains and breathe underwater again to confirm that I was still dreaming.


* * *


Heading back down the walkway, I went into the gallery and in the opposite direction of the room. It became apparent that I was in a mall. I ran into the woman who coordinates the local Fetish Circuit events, don't remember her name so I'll refer to her as D.


She recognized me and we hugged and she pulled me into her store of BDSM equipment and clothing. There were people in all kinds of getups (and some nude), doing all kinds of things, and as we walked to the back, we were joined by more people.


The back wall opened to the outside, and I could see that this was much more than a store! It was like a theme park! D put my arm in hers and we walked along the road, walked right up to the edge of a deep pit where I looked down and saw green water with what looked like barnacles on the bottom and sides. Something was moving, somethig made of these "barnacles" and shaped like a cross between human and octopus. There was another creature, kind of reptilian. D was standing behind me, trying to play up the fear of being pushed in until I realized those 'creatures' below were just other guests and I wasn't afraid of the water, so the threat of being pushed in didn't bother me.


There were lots of other species there (like something out of a sci-fi movie) and the ratio of 'aliens' to people increased as we kept walking. There were pools everywhere, most with dark, murky water, and something like a moat around the whole park.


The group stopped so someone could retie their shoes. I realized I had sneakers and socks so I sat down on the curb to put them on. The group started walking but I only had one shoe on, so after I tied the other shoe, I went and found water and got in and breathed beneath the surface to verify that I was dreaming.


* * *


The rest of the dream followed that pattern. I'd meet people, some who knew me from somewhere but whom I only vaguely recognized. Then I'd find water, get in, and breathe. It didn't matter that some of it was murky or dark.


I got tired of this and found a railing separating the park from a river in France. Looking over, I saw a walkway of pebbles, a 1 foot wooden border along the edge, and a metal ladder to climb down to the river. I leapt over the rails, hoping to clear the walkway and land in the river, and I had that sharp falling sensation (thankfully did not wake up from it!) and hit the ground hard, but was OK.


I climbed down the ladder and found myself on a beach where the mayor was cutting the ribbon to officially open this new beach. Then everyone was running forward and swimming. I walked into the ocean and walked along the bottom of it. It was quiet, and so weird to see everyone swimming above. At the other side, some kids were underwater as well and there was some big, black inflated thing that we were trying to deflate. I explained surfing to a Canadian. Then I swam to the surface.


* * *


It was like breaking the surface of a pool, where I climbed out onto a tile floor. Jade was there (an ex from high school). S/he had pieces of fruit that s/he was distributing to a group of people, they traveled in a pack as nomads, and I held the plate while s/he counted it out.


* * *


Then I decided I wanted to leave this whole place and go somewhere else entirely, but I didn't know how to teleport. I didn't want to close my eyes and spin and expect to see a new place when I opened them because I didn't want to wake up again from it, so I walked until I found a large, very deep, dark body of water. People were swimming along the surface, but I also saw a lot of people walking along the bottom and wondered if they were all lucid dreamers, too!


So I dove in and walked, talked to a few people but they didn't seem to realize that they were dreaming. I shouted twice to see if anyone could hear my underwater but I could barely hear myself. I found two guys around my age and we were discussing feminism (one was also a feminist, one didn't understand it). When we got to the end and climbed out, a psychiatrist had us all fill out this thing. The questions didn't make sense. She said I was schizophrenic but I didn't believe it.


* * *


I realized I was still in the mall, but a different area of it. There was a display of edible socks and I stopped to look at them, was going to buy one for my dad who's diabetic when I heard a cat at my feet and looked down to see Fox tangled up in light blue string. I kneeled down to untangle him, and he turned into Chino, so I untangled Chino.


* * *


Continuing on the walkway, I found myself back in the gallery area where my mom was in a room beside a sink with one of my sister's friends who had this orogastric tube and it had a worm in it. They wanted me to remove it because I'm an RN but worms creep me out and I'd never seen the apparatus that was at the end of it before, had no idea how it worked.


When they unplugged it, there was this thick white discharge. Then I "saw" a vision (the same way I'd see a memory) of her getting treatment for it from her doctor and knew it happened occasionally, and there were meds she needed to take after it was removed, so I advised that she see her doctor about it.


* * *


I left to find more water and found the fountains from the beginning of the dream. I got in and breathed underwater to confirm that I was still dreaming. I started talking to an androgynous stranger. S/he was naked and we walked over to a pool by the wall, and the wall had these beautiful painted tiles, some with Hebrew text. S/he wanted to make out, but I said, "You're dreaming! We're both dreaming!" and s/he said, "That would be a waste of a lucid dream," and I said, "I know, I agree!"


At that point, I don't remember if I woke up on purpose or if I just woke up. I checked the time on my phone and saw that I'd been lucid dreaming for 2.66 hours straight.

Additional Comments:

Breathing underwater has always been my most reliable reality check, though probably the most dangerous one if I try it while I'm awake! Electronics not working correctly is also a pretty good, consistent indicator, one that I should've recognized right away when my phone wasn't working right.

  • Themes
  • Drug Use
  • Health
  • Relationships
  • SciFi
  • Sexuality
  • Transition
  • Settings
  • Indoors
  • Mall
  • Outdoors
  • Sea
  • Characters
  • Mother
  • Child
  • Friend
  • Stranger
  • Aliens
  • Animals
  • Familiar
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Accomplished
  • Happiness
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Physical
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    BDSM
    species
    aliens
    foreign countries
    medical
    gender
    androgyny
    breathing underwater
    fountain
    cats
    lucid
    lucid dream
    moat
    ocean
    river
    lake
    water
    mall
    road
    walkway
    electronics
    phone
    shoes
    Add'l Emotions
    curiosity

    Too many dreams to title in one line.

    Date of dream: Saturday, June 09, 2012

    Level of Lucidity: N/A     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    (Typed in lowercase to get it all written down so I wouldn't forget. Might proofread later.)

    c drive, logging onto vm to load default ppt to use for teaching us MyServices which was up with MM and Cloud and other tabs, online conference with S. i was going to volunteer to learn the new system and teach it to the group since i'm a trainer and thought it would make her workload a little lighter but i didn't want her to think i was trying to take her job. (she's in learning & development so she trains the trainers, then we train the clients.)

    ...

    something about the devil in a tree on the side of the road.

    ...

    roommates in second life with an androgynous orange person.

    ...

    in my first ever apartment with S and she had ilinc up and pictures along the side of the screen of her family, one of her dad who looked very much like my dad used to. one of her at 18 or 19 when she looked almost like a werewolf and had to change her appearance because her parents got divorced and she had to look more like her new dad. i said "it must've been hard having to change your appearance at that age" and she said it wasn't and that i should talk to my dad because "he can tell you how to look." i realized what she meant: i should talk to my dad, whom she assumed was also short, so i could learn how to live with being short. but for one, my dad is actually 5'7", and for two, i've been 5'2" since i was 16 and i think i've lived the last 9 years just fine. i was thinking about this dream when i realized i was awake and had no idea how long i'd been awake. (i NEVER woke up gradually before xyrem.)

    ...

    i was in a hotel room with a woman and she had a baby with huge eyes like hers, and the baby was very small, but she was with a very tall guy. the baby was going to be 4'11" (i don't know how we knew this), she was 5'4", but it was somehow a logical and obvious conclusion that the kid's father was a shorter guy because of this. the guy who thought he was the father was my friend. i called him, let him know she had something to tell him, and handed her the phone.

    ...

    this very pale guy with very large blue eyes was in a bar with a woman and he'd had half of some kind of transgender surgery and insisted on waiting until tomorrow to get the other half done, though she was trying to push him to get it done today. i was sitting on a couch on the other side of the room. suddenly i was watching a very trippy video with text and numbers and it was flashing like a slideshow, very bright, with red lines and black arrows, blue text, and i kept closing my eyes and still seeing it, but almost more vividly than on the screen, and i kept opening my eyes again to validate that i was actually seeing the same thing in my head as was on the screen.

    ...

    i was at a party with a guy who had a huge mohawk of white/green hair whom i suddenly realized from his eyes that he was the guy in the bar, very pale, and i don't know how i knew that he'd been stabbed in the chest that night because i hadn't seen it. i asked him if being stabbed felt the way he thought it would feel. he said no, that he was kind of detached from his chest when it happened. i wondered if he was dead b/c of how pale he was.

    ...

    lots of people at the party and in later scenes who were from the new season of skins UK (the season that doesn't yet exist).

    ...

    outside at an occupy rally and there were bulls and large dogs guarding the area, guarding a mushroom patch. shrooms had been legalized but then almost all of the ones growing in the wild were destroyed. this was one of four remaining patches. i joined the group and some ppl recognized me though i didn't know or recognize them.

    ...

    we were driving around in england and driving on the left side of the road as they do and seeing how many bumper sticker references we understood. we stopped at a building (a shelter or something) and had to go through this drug detector thing and somehow it realized that i was carrying 6 airtight containers of dried shrooms. i set them down, stood in it again, and it didn't pick up anything so i picked the containers back up and walked right past it.

    ...

    growing organic morning glories, collecting seeds, something about dyads and triads of seeds. planting morning glories and collecting the seeds was a more important task than anyone else realized and because of that, no one else was doing it.

    Additional Comments:

    Fourth night on a new med for narcolepsy that I thought was supposed to prolong deep sleep (sleep study showed I never got past stage 2), and while I'm sure I'm getting stage 3/4 now, I feel like I'm also getting more REM. Not that I'm complaining :) Just not sure if that's how it's supposed to work.

  • Themes
  • Drug Use
  • Friendly
  • Fun
  • Politics/ Govt.
  • Relationships
  • Sexuality
  • Transition
  • Violence
  • Settings
  • Familiar
  • Indoors
  • Outdoors
  • Unfamiliar
  • Work
  • Characters
  • Significant Other
  • Friend
  • Colleague
  • Animals
  • Familiar
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Confusion
  • Happiness
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Problem Solving
  • Driving
  • Working
  • Keywords
    morning glories
    england
    animals
    mushrooms
    shrooms
    work
    text
    slideshow
    england
    rally

    Narcolepsy, false awakening, frequent awakenings. Clear text

    Date of dream: Saturday, May 26, 2012

    Level of Lucidity:     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    (These aren't in chronological order. I can't remember the right order.)

    It was Tuesday, and I was back from vacation. The cubicles were tighter, closer, with more walls, almost like a maze. I had the Aetna website open and K (co-worker) asked if I'd pull up her medical record and "renew" it. I started to tell her that she could access her own record from the site and do that, but realized she'd asked me because I'm an RN and she wanted me to look over it so I could help her understand it. While the page was loading, I went to click the link but clicked the wrong one and it locked the record. (The text was clear and unchanging.)

    ...

    I was in the car and had a copy of my PSG and MSLT results on the seat next to me. I stopped at a jewelry store and ran in to ask if they had a stapler and a calculator that I could borrow. (I wanted to staple the pages to keep them together.) The guy behind the counter looked at me like I was crazy - of course he had a stapler. As I walked back out to the car to get the papers, I somehow knew that he was rolling his eyes. I had a weird shaky, sweaty feeling like I'd taken a stimulant.

    ...

    There was some creepy scene that looked like a cartoon involving characters from Family Guy and a large dead body in a hotel room. One cartoon character paid the other to eat the body, locking him in the room with it and giving him a week to do it.

    ...

    I stopped by a pharmacy looking for melatonin. There were two types and I wasn't sure which one I was looking for.

    ...

    At some point, I had a false awakening. I "woke up" and my wife asked if I'd slept (like they asked each time they came to wake me up during the MSLT). I said no, then said that actually, I had slept in one of them. She got angry because she'd been watching the EEG, EOG, and EMG recordings, and she thought that I was lying because all of them had shown that I'd slept. I turned over and reached for my cell phone, started to text her a message explaining that I was sure I was awake because I could hear sounds, could feel my body and the sheets, and was aware of my thoughts. (The text was clear and unchanging.) Then I realized that I might be dreaming. I had what felt like a cataplexy episode (a wave of numbness spreading from head to toe, arms went heavy) and almost woke up. Again, I thought I was awake, and I was frustrated that she didn't believe me and started yelling at her. At that point, I did wake up, and I wasn't sure if I'd actually been yelling out loud or not. (When she wakes up, I'll have to ask her.)

     

    Additional Comments:

     

    I was diagnosed Thursday with narcolepsy. Saw a sleep specialist because I wanted to stop taking the sleeping pills but couldn't sleep without them. He ordered a PSG and MSLT (sleep studies), asked me a bunch of weird questions about things I wouldn't have even realized were symptoms, and apparently this is why I've always had so much trouble sleeping - the  brain is trying to stay awake while it's supposed to be asleep and trying to sleep while it's supposed to be awake.

    My wife and I are on a weekend trip. We went back to the hotel to get some sleep between activities and I felt like I was awake most of the time, aware of the sounds in the room and the feel of the sheets, aware of my thoughts, just like I was during the 5 naps of the MSLT - though the EEG showed that I'd fallen asleep all 5 times with an average sleep latency of about 5 minutes. In the hotel, I woke up at least 10 times. These are the dreams that I remember.

    I had another dream a week or two ago during which I woke up laughing.

     

  • Themes
  • Aggression
  • Drug Use
  • Health
  • Relationships
  • Settings
  • Work
  • Characters
  • Significant Other
  • Colleague
  • Familiar
  • Emotions
  • Anger
  • Shock
  • Activities
  • Physical
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Movement
  • Fighting
  • Keywords
    computer
    melatonin
    pharmacy
    dead body
    cartoon
    sleeping
    yelling
    text message
    text
    false awakening
    MSLT
    PSG
    narcolepsy
    work
    medical records
    wife
    dead body
    Add'l Emotions
    frustration